Yesterday I spent another 3 hours going through my “thingymajig” mainlyÂ formatting it but a bit of proof reading as well. Having to read it backÂ destroyed me a bit and I have huge doubts about actually publishing it but IÂ think today will be the day :-\
I think I’ve mentioned on here before that I hit 20000 words and then a coupleÂ of things smacked me in the fizog (face) and made me quite ill again, I realisedÂ that one of the things that was making me ill was writing the thingymajig and IÂ needed to either publish it or forget it. I have pasted in the blog contents up toÂ a certain date and although this might seem like a bit of a cheat I actuallyÂ think it is ok for me to do this? I’ve set the price at Â£5 if I get bad feedbackÂ about the price I will reduce it (possibly). It’s not about the money for me,Â although cus I can’t work on the grounds of being a nut job I do need some cash,Â in the main it’s about other people asking me to do it and saying my wordsÂ helped them and will help others. This might sound a bit delusional but I thinkÂ my words can help people, actually I know they can because I have had a number ofÂ messages in private and in the open saying just this, this fills me withÂ such pride….
Finally I have achieved something, finally I can feel like I have succeeded atÂ something…. No it’s not what I always wanted to achieve, good job, big house,Â expensive cars and all that jazz but to have been told I stopped someone killingÂ themselves is so much more worth while than all that shite!!!!
Saf made this comment a few days ago xxx
Â APRIL 1, 2014
The world needs those memoirs! They will be on my book shelf. You forgot oneÂ other thing you are good atâ€¦helping others! You and your blog has reached out toÂ others and made a difference! What if thats been ure destiny all along. HelluvaÂ price to pay I know but what u do matters. People need to hear the voice of theÂ â€˜patientâ€™ its certainly improved my practice as a nurse in addictions andÂ personally i know im not alone in dealing with whats in my head!
I have no words to respond properly to this….
I had a message on Twitter the other day simply saying “Thank youÂ for cheering me up this morning” This filled me with a wonderfulÂ feeling and all I did was basically say “hi, how are you?”.
So as I’ve said before “thinking (thunking) is overrated” “Just do it” “it isÂ what it is” “enjoy the good and ride out the bad” “strap on a pair”.
I have strapped on a pair and I’m ready to roll….
I think? :-\
Keep Smiling 🙂